Be Still

Medical brigade.
How exhausting it was.
How beautiful it was.
10 days in the jungle, moving from village to village to serve people. To give them more than just medicine; to hand them the Remedy.

There were so many circumstances in which God's glory was revealed.

A perfect starry night to start things off. The light given off by the stars accompanied by the sound of guitar strings filling the air.

Having us be in the exact place at the right time to help a woman in need. A woman who lost a baby but gained Jesus.

Yet, there were moments that I just couldn't do it anymore.
I strongly disliked having days where I couldn't move because of a headache.
Days that I couldn't use my right hand because of a spider bite.
Days where I physically had nothing else to give.

But it was those days that I can now see how we should be still and just know that God is.

Today, I got back from a community about 3 hours away from Leticia by boat. I went with 2 other girls that will be helping out at the base until Sunday.
After taking charge in the kitchen, I knew that I was doing way too many things.
Running from one side of the community to be with the kids while the rice was cooking and then having to run back to the kitchen so it wouldn't burn.
There was way too much on my plate.
As I hopped up onto the kitchen (it was elevated a couple of feet), the board I landed on broke, causing my right leg to go straight through, leaving my knee with cuts and bruises.
At the moment, I can't walk without it hurting.
Want me to bend my knee?
My eyes will water from the pain.

I had to sit down and let others work too.
I had no other choice but be still.
I had no other choice but open my heart to the lesson God has been trying to teach me for so long.

And as hyperactive as I am, sitting still is quite hard.
Yet, I know that learning how to let God just be is extremely crucial.

As I sat down instead of making lunch today, a breeze brushed my face and I heard the slightest whisper: "Be still, Beloved."

At that moment, I knew. I knew that God was, is, and is yet to come.
I knew that His being didn't depend on what I did or didn't do.
He just IS.

Be still and know that I am God.
Psalm 46:10